I don't know why am I having such a bad feeling. It happened since Sunday after I went out with my gang of girls. After reach home, having my dinner and went into my room. Watched drama that I have downloaded and unconsciously fall asleep. When I woke up, it was time when my family are going to bed.
I couldn't sleep, so decided to tidy up my room, my piano, my racks and my table. Had a cup of milk so that I could sleep better and faster. However, it didn't work which make me suddenly think of my future. Elaine and I were having a discussion on that while I was on the way to fetch her home. We both felt that our future are undecide, even myself have this kind of feeling. I can say that I choose the course that I like and I really love it. The problem is, is that gonna be what you are after you learn it?Most of the time, is a NO. You may practise it, but not in the field that you study for. So, what's the point?
Once in a while, I am a lier. I lie to myself that how capable I am, how much of the responsible that I can take, how confident I am. Actually I am not, I know myself well. Some how i wish that there are person who support me, who understand my situation, who know that there are things that I do not know, especially those who think that I know everything and I have everything. Don't pretend that you know me well!
What happen to me this week? I made mistakes when I work, I was exhausted, I was moody, and I could not concentrate even I was reading. Gosh, what is going to happen?
2 条评论:
yo..1 shot read 4 blog entries of yours.......wow,they are super long!
I do sometimes have this negative aura circuling myself once in a while. Its like suddenly they pop up into my head and my entire mood drop like share market.
Everything will be alright, my dear...aithought it sucks now......
thx dear, hope these will over soon. I might need a short break, to think what I really need.
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